So tired. went to bed about 9:30, slept right through Sue's getting up and having breakfast. Finally got up about 8:15. Yesterday Sue told me maybe I should get treatment started. The hope being that treatment will get me to where I'm not tired anymore, or at least AS tired, and also be transfusion independent. I'm reluctant. Call me irrational. It becomes very real if I have the port implanted and start chemo. And when I have seen chemo patients, they seem really sick. I want to avoid that. Chemo does not look survivable. I know it is, but I have recollection almost exclusively of those who did not. Meantime, my ongoing cold seems to be getting worse right now. Have not really been well since Nov 3. Going back in to my ears..

Hey, the rain has stopped and the sun came out. Almost full blue sky. Cheer up, Buckwheat.